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Once I loved you, then no more.
I didn’t know you, but I placed you on a stage.
And at the same time you put me in a prison.

I believed the sun was your handmaiden and shone just for you.
You turned out the lights on my existence.
I was never as lonely as when we were together.
I was never as sad as when you laughed.
I was never as angry as when you were happy.
Nor was I as satisfied as when you walked out the door for the last time.
Because you never spoke things lovers say, you were happy and laughing only when you were with him.
I wanted to leave as soon as you entered the room.
You made my life hell.

Now I am dying and don’t want you around.
For I die only in body.
You killed the spirit long ago.
Yet as the world darkens around me, I know you are near.
The criminal always returns to the scene of the crime.
But as my life flashes through my mind in those final seconds, my last words surely will be "I love you still."
And when you bend over to gently kiss my head,
      again I will die alone.

 

Reprinted from "It was easy to say goodbye"
Copyright 2002 Keith Gery